Everything is Fictitious, Nothing is Permanent

While in retrospection on life I realize that it just goes on, nothing is permanent and everything is fictitious. I am thinking on the personal account of work, relationship, even experience, skills, love or life. To begin with, assuming a chapter is one year, I may be at chapter twelfth, the time I had left the studies and employed in a company. With all the time of hard work, acquaintances, knowledge, money and experience, I find myself still the same fix, in the dilemma to make the next step forward into future, to choose someone to make a family or even establish myself to be counted as successful in this material world. I am awake to realize that the time has passed away and rather far away and I am still the same. Even the repeated efforts to come of the problematic state do not seem to an end. Again when I think this, it turns back to me as déjà vu. So better not concentrate on what went wrong, because I know that it was intentionally created conspiracies against me, that’s what I am feeling now.

Even if I look around in the world to gain some inspiration that nothing has changed actually, I find that there are lots of things that are getting fictitious and were permanent sometime before. The world on high octane fuel to race ahead ever is into recession suddenly, it was almost same time 12 years before that was the period of slow down and all careers were in transition. I knew someone around that time called kanica, who was just fresh out graduate roaming around in search of a job. As nothing much was she getting around in Delhi that she taken a decision to move to Bangalore (Now, Bangaluru), It was a startup It company Satyam that she chosen after careful investigation of company promoters and IT goodwill. The last talk I had with her gave me impression that she will not come to Delhi again. Even when she said that what Delhi has given me all these years? It made me want her, I realized me true emotions for her need in my life. I could not stop her. I longed to see her all these wihle when she kept writing back a small note on email or a letter or just a pictorial postcard. She went on… AWAY Forever… … …

Recently the Satyam fraud broke out that reminded me all about her ambition to be part of Startup Company that time. Even the hard work, sweat, devotion & dedication of most of associates and employees, broken relationships n hearts, sacrifices and dreams of ambitious people just dived thru the bottom of the sea. All this at the behest of insatiable greed for money by company’s promoters, So everything for those guys too would be fictitious as well, I suppose.

I have always believed that life has its buoyancy force, what has touché the bottom of the see will return to surface to fly again. Perhaps, the same situations of the past do keep coming again but with the better maneuverability and skill of the master craftsman, the life has to get shaped up again. The external factor on economies to continue has to be tackled well in any case. Because of wasted twelve chapters now, I got to move on regard less of any belonging or longing that ever was. I would pray to my god to energize me to resurface myself and look for external economics to work in favor of my next endeavor.

I saw this picture and realized that how close this is to my life and may describe it without any words. Shhh….

History Misinterpreted

I mean history is never misinterpreted but the way we perceive history is misinterpreted.
 

Well some cynical person, Once in his life made a comment that “history repeats itself”.
And there is whole lot of monkeys to follow that comment.
 

History to me is sequential arrangement of fact and figures meant to study the life of our
ancestors to know that what we are today was some time that way. We know history
as it ever existed. We just do not look back into history to become that way! We
do it to know that it has happened and how to avoid that not to be again. We do
not want anything wrong in the past days to relive ever in the future.

 

Unlike a chimp which has laid back in the evolution. History repeats itself. Chimp has to
go thru all the learning done by its predecessor in his lifetime. They have the
mind to develop but no way to pass on to create a history. History is mystery
for them.
 

As a human being we have the mind blessed to us and took millions of years for our genes to
develop it as it is today. We learnt, we know and we decide. Thus every other
generation we pass on another episode of history that was never existed before
us. It does not repeat for humans.
 

I am writing this Blog to make those people know who just think that there is only
way as it ever existed in history to many other people. I would say their mind
is left out in evolution and their category is more towards chimps where as they
have become human.
 

Definitely we learn the good instance from the history and will ever like to carry into our
experiences from our ancestors. But, necessarily making all those things happen
just because it has ever existed in the history is just not creativity of human mind.