Mind of my own

An intriguing, unique and relentlessly abundant of it available in the top end of my head. I always have believed that there is limit to it and it will stop at some time. But, interestingly it always has skyful of ideas and sea-depth of talks available. come what it may, wont stop anywhere. It is brake-free, even if its counter parts are resting or sleeping. Mind is the machine that works. Almost always, known to work until life or may be even after, who knows about that much. Huh ! Who cares… I want it to stop. Stop for sometime and relax. wait for enigma to reveal out. but, without working of it there comes no revelations. No outcome, no conclusions and no results. so it is something that has to go on… Even at the behest of past memories. or may be wild dreams or fantasias or creative ideas, rejoicing for winning or remorse in the failures. All is directed from the upside headquarter of head. Sometime it acts on rationale, Sometime it works on impulse or othertime it works on ideals. Concious or sub-concious, Active or inactive, it influances the body to act & react. Guide to work and move or navigate to investigate and know or stimulate to indluge or meet. It is an enigma. unknown and uncontrolable waving free in the open environments. roping in the free thaught process brings control and decipline. but that is not required some time when it has plenty of it to revealor When one is emotional or when self evaluating or when writting a blog. Non-sensible, direction-less free thaughts that is rushing out to see the light of the day in the form of tiny threads resting on wordpress servers. Ha..ha.. Believe it or not mind has unlimited potentials. In one life the humans just use 10 ~ 20 percent of this. remaining remains enigma. we are living with out own obstacles and tribulations of life that we rarely get enough time to think that what could be potentail of our own mind. There are three stages of it. Development, creations and recreations. The early in life every one spend time in developments of this and then come the stage to create and innovate where a few people utilize this to any potential, then recreational is the later in life when you loose what it gained early in life and start recreating with the age of the time. Nothing hinders that process in any circumstances. it works in good or bad. love or hate. In social or in isolation. the mind machine goes on. and it will. realize it with in you for better or worse. I try to guide it for constructive ways what about you?

TopDog Millionaire

Slumdog Millionaire emerges as the TopDog Millionaire on the Oscar’s big day. Just another romantic movie in India with difference of freshness of plot and well knitted story in fast paced sequence ending on much predictable, yet curiously awaited happy ending. This is not the first time the west has tried to ridicule on the poverty & slum in India, but has creatively showcased the petty matters piling up to the bigger problem of begging , brothel and helplessness that under poverty line puppies cries to their malnutrition belly. In reality, there in fact seem to be no end to their woes in India. However the movie has given the hope for one of the underdog to emerge as the TopDog to get his ladylove. That’s the magic! “Universal in its appeal”, “Courageous in its charm” & “struggling in its efforts” Emerging as Hero in hope to win his love gets the boy, his chance of lifetime “to be” or “not to be”. Luck favors him in his struggle and gets him his women along with money. As they say “God is great” and eventually “Truth only Triumphs”.

On Movie making: This is an attempt by British director Danny Boyle to make a wholesome Indian movie that picturesque some of the dirtiest of shots on poverty and rug to emerging India’s inc. as call center business. Creating incidents based on popular Indian theme of lost in childhood and found in love themes, further collaborating the same to most popular and successful reality TV theme game show “Who wants to an millionaire” A wonderful story telling with no loose shots anywhere. Those made him achieve and earn the best moments of his life in Oscars. Thought the most of awards goes on making the movie technically correct, but it certainly has made the focus of the world again towards India as destination to achieve the creative ambitions cheaply. Utilizing the talent in India to the utmost desire of the storyline has proved success all along.

New Age Love: As usual in Indian cinema the love story has lots of hardships and tribulations. But with this fast paced emotional drama which does not require much to be said, than express it by emotions is truly international in nature. To me it is a new age “Ashiqui” which is the sole objective of life for a person who has nothing in his life and wants only belongingness of his love. No big in dream but only union of his childhood love. That surly is not reality, but it is just make the movie its own “Muqaddar ka Sikander” in time.

The New Heroes: Again this is the new defining cinema on Indian Horizon to guide along the making of new Heroes. Who are bigger than life but not macho, who face the hardships but not complain who makes the way-out but not reciprocate. The young and dynamic Dev Patel and Ferida Pinto who are supported by their young artists proved to be the TopGun of Indian Cinema. In the young age of 18, Dev Patel may be making his way ahead in international cinema and at the same time Ferida Pinto already a craze on the front pages of magazines. This has opened the ways for more talents in India to come out of stereotypes and bring the freshness of new age cinema to life.

In the end: As the Music and Songs an integral part of Indian cinema brings focus on A.R. Rehman “The darling of Indian Cinema” his due credibility. Two Oscars for music and technicians that transcends any language in the world brought the awards in the English speaking country. Recognizing the music score beyond the territory of speaking proves that music has no language. It touches hearts… “As originally as they say “Jai Ho”.”

When life is like a trail

All are born human in urban jungle of metropolis. Life is nothing but an art to be spoilt unlike animals to earn a livelihood in the work arena of this open jungle. Those not realizing to be bitched face the trial to prove innocence for not sinning. Good not remains good unless there exists any bad. Most of the beings in order to be good cannot withstand the heat from the hell and broken to be bad. Those crossing the fence to the other side to see the green find their self as part of cult to become as bad. Easy to attain the purpose find it as easy to obtain the solution. But the rule of hell is unless you make someone else from the community of good guys to become as bad you may not enjoy the full privileges of bandwagon.

Above written paragraph is just an extempore thought while thinking about the subject line. I just read it and realized that may be it is worthless to keep, but just for sake of an enigmatic thought that caused the birth of this germ of a piece it may be okay to keep it. May be someone will be able to know what it means.

If I write everything very specifically mentioning about the complete names and relations then it shall be very intriguing and curious to know about all those who may be part of my life or simply would be very autobiographical stuff. Thus, most of the time, I find myself mentioning a part of story that may be just happened at one point in time. But today, my asking rate to the god is enormous as for why he has done to me what he has bestowed in this life. At the moment I am just thinking that there was none of my fault but because of the company of some chunk of people around me had created havoc of tribulations for me and my life. All they were doing was finishing the first. “No. 1” of anything in my life. Even though that is not the number one actually, they will finish that pretending it to the first time. I was never suspicious or nor cautious about that ever. For me that was life as it good as it gets. All that good later turned to be as bad as it could be. Still I was under impression that is something like destiny. Never blaming any one, just getting along the flow of what comes next. But those entire story makers were still hounding thru my daily routines and creating the same old fashioned problems repeatedly endlessly. Now it seems to me that my life is more of a trial put through to prove the innocence. Where there are no judges, no case, no crime and no guilty either. Just imaginary creation of what had been done to finish the firsts.

Next question to god will be just that will he be able to undo what was not supposed to be part of my life. Well I know there is no one to answer about that, but to come out of strings of operations to make me down, I now find myself of suspicious of any other person does something leading to damage my reputation further or harm me. I know this is called some kind of phobia either. But coming out of all those false relations and contacts, everything seems to be disconnected and without any belonging. Sense of interdependency is lost and finds myself as alone in this world as I am first person on mars. All those comments seem to be like shadow of my own wanting to regain its real status as it existed sometime before. That has become the legacy. A burden to unload by slashing the old to bringing the new, New in me, that has nothing to do with my past shadows and neither to create any reflections of similar sort. I sometime think that how about going to the past and correcting what could be the better way. But at the same time, I think that it all had to happen hence it had. No way out to escape, just have to reshape my own frame of mind to get an impact on how future molds.

Whatever be the moral of the story, but I would always like to curse those people who does wrong to me and care for those who just helped me to gain or rather regain myself. Now I help others to get myself helped.

Republic Day 2009

 Today is the 60^th Republic Day India is celebrating. With much hype and exhibition of her defence system and capability in the Republic Day parade, it did not interest me anymore as compare to what I used to enjoy in my childhood days. Only impressive part of complete celebration was the award ceremonies of those who braved their lives in name of this country, those who sacrificed for the sake of their duties at the cost of their lives. Even achieving the 60th birthday for Indian judiciary and constitution has become more of a challenge for her book keepers and guards. What aches me to see in this celebration is that, after such a long history of this country, we are still getting perturbed by anonymous attacks from the neighboring country, which has history to evoke wars and perpetuate terrorists. We still do not have any action plans to root out these causes and believe in mutual diplomatic dialogue to calm the issues in case it erupts.

Nation building is just not about limiting the progress to trade and business. It also involves the things as displayed in the parade on Republic Day, “Power & Might”, not just to influence the guest of honor, but to embark and employ them at the area of influence and sensitivity. So that no one could dare to think about attack which has caused so many lives in this year of Indian Republic. The leader who could envision the future generation and territories, who could proactively realize to strengthen the bases at the same time screws up the elements of impregnating terrorism in the society and pull up all chords to transportation of any further invasion from neighboring land of holy warriors.

The issues that seem to have interest in the coming next year of this country is to revive its economy out of the global slowdown and improve out of its social system to investigate the elements that spread the terror’o’mania in the youth of its own citizens. Nothing better than enhanced education system could breed that in the blood vessels of the fast track technical young mind of this country. Hunger for power has made leader of this country myopic to the need of country and Greed of money has made the entrepreneur to weaken off its own foundation of organization. The year that saw too much but will remain ignorant to most of us for years to come, because we do not want to concentrate on what went wrong and who should be held responsible for it. Just removal of the doer from the position of charge, gives out the opportunity to another person to profit from the cow that has to be milked, lest it will be taken up by some else. We do not set examples for anyone who does anything wrong because his virtue is always over evaluated in comparisons to the sin. Punishment is restricted to low level heinous crimes and mind games are still deserves the better ratting in this democracy. Be it at the helm of corers of citizens or thousands of employees.

It is all in the “The Attitude” to serve or to get served. Until our leader lead from the front and show us the way, we are actually getting nowhere in this flat world. To The next journey of our republic we salute those who has given us this day to breath and live freely in the largest democratic republic of India.

Everything is Fictitious, Nothing is Permanent

While in retrospection on life I realize that it just goes on, nothing is permanent and everything is fictitious. I am thinking on the personal account of work, relationship, even experience, skills, love or life. To begin with, assuming a chapter is one year, I may be at chapter twelfth, the time I had left the studies and employed in a company. With all the time of hard work, acquaintances, knowledge, money and experience, I find myself still the same fix, in the dilemma to make the next step forward into future, to choose someone to make a family or even establish myself to be counted as successful in this material world. I am awake to realize that the time has passed away and rather far away and I am still the same. Even the repeated efforts to come of the problematic state do not seem to an end. Again when I think this, it turns back to me as déjà vu. So better not concentrate on what went wrong, because I know that it was intentionally created conspiracies against me, that’s what I am feeling now.

Even if I look around in the world to gain some inspiration that nothing has changed actually, I find that there are lots of things that are getting fictitious and were permanent sometime before. The world on high octane fuel to race ahead ever is into recession suddenly, it was almost same time 12 years before that was the period of slow down and all careers were in transition. I knew someone around that time called kanica, who was just fresh out graduate roaming around in search of a job. As nothing much was she getting around in Delhi that she taken a decision to move to Bangalore (Now, Bangaluru), It was a startup It company Satyam that she chosen after careful investigation of company promoters and IT goodwill. The last talk I had with her gave me impression that she will not come to Delhi again. Even when she said that what Delhi has given me all these years? It made me want her, I realized me true emotions for her need in my life. I could not stop her. I longed to see her all these wihle when she kept writing back a small note on email or a letter or just a pictorial postcard. She went on… AWAY Forever… … …

Recently the Satyam fraud broke out that reminded me all about her ambition to be part of Startup Company that time. Even the hard work, sweat, devotion & dedication of most of associates and employees, broken relationships n hearts, sacrifices and dreams of ambitious people just dived thru the bottom of the sea. All this at the behest of insatiable greed for money by company’s promoters, So everything for those guys too would be fictitious as well, I suppose.

I have always believed that life has its buoyancy force, what has touché the bottom of the see will return to surface to fly again. Perhaps, the same situations of the past do keep coming again but with the better maneuverability and skill of the master craftsman, the life has to get shaped up again. The external factor on economies to continue has to be tackled well in any case. Because of wasted twelve chapters now, I got to move on regard less of any belonging or longing that ever was. I would pray to my god to energize me to resurface myself and look for external economics to work in favor of my next endeavor.

I saw this picture and realized that how close this is to my life and may describe it without any words. Shhh….

On the New Edge 2009

Life is on the cutting edge. Yeah! Almost it is like that, nothing less than the sharp edge of a cliff of the mountain. To maintain the balance and keep on the track is all about living up to it. While moving on to another year is like exploring and making more pathways to the next challenge. I hope that will be success as never before and rewarding as at the best it could be.

A wish comes to those who are actually valued from someone close. I pronounce myself as a loner as I never had been. I am looking for wishes that comes flying from someone that would actually work. Nevertheless, what I could do to continue is to wish myself to give the life a smash to break the bottlenecks, damn to tear the negativities, Bullshit to curb the enemies and lastly paranormal energies to accelerate the progress.

Passing on to another razor sharp edge of the New Year, It comes as a great challenge to me to revive myself out of a great stigma of isolation and break off from the outer world. At the same time breaking the memories of those who had once pretended to be dear to me and cease to exist anymore. Love of those who prefer to love of some more, Friends of opportunism and relations of selfishness, Escapism from conspirators, It really had took me a long time to balance myself on the edge during all these years. I am still not aware that why I had been targeted of all that had been staged for me. I am not the wrongdoer of anyone in this world. But to make their way ahead a few unidentified close affiliations certainly had infused their ill wills in to the life of a genuine and sober person.  

Revival ! Not as such a great come back plan. But it had been the part of process in every endeavor during this year. I want to live to work and to continue my life. I never had wanted anyone without any happiness; I wished all I could to those who had little faith in me. I despised all those who had planned a fate of failure for me. I craved the new paths for me, new people to meet, new contacts to work and new avenues to perform. I need space of life to excel, support of relations to exceed and blessings of almighty to show me the path. Performance is all that I could deliver; trust is all that I want to win. To regain life is the biggest force of buoyancy that only could be believed to those who live up to it. I thank my inner strength and God to make me wake until this day. I pledge to continue from here without any remorse to my inner concise and what had been my past that ever was. I certainly like to see the day when all those conspirators face their own death of ideals. But at the moment my revival is all that matters to me and I hope to come out of long stigma that ever was as a hurdle race to me.

Why A Terror Strike

Mumbai Terror Strike

With continues planned and executed serial attacks from the different Islamic Groups proves that the religious fundamentalist would be extremist to promote their community and at the same time infusing hatred in already prospering secular state. The news on Mumbai Open Firing came as an outrageous act by cynical terror agents of international extremist groups, whose objective is to hamper the life stream and divert the importance to their growing supremacy in the underworld kingdom.

 

They say that “We have done it right and have no regrets about it” signifies that there is no importance for any form of livelihood to them. I use to think that for a terrorist there is only work to increase fatalities by whatever it may, even at the cost of their life.But, yes it seems that they also have a thought process. Which guides them to think what is right and what is wrong. Obviously no one would be able to do anything unless their concise allows them to do what is right to do. Just the difference with normal person is that a terror agent, contrary to the common belief thinks that destruction to others will make them popular with greater followings based on fear created among people. The belief of kill and get killed will not take their cause of promoting so called “Jihad” any further. They would be shrunk to chunk of underworld mutant with disconnection to the outer world in just no time.

Where in hell on earth is it all worked upon? Over the years they have number of assignments executed to bring about their name in media all across globe. Now everyone almost know about this Institution of terror. “Al Quada” institution of perfection in terror education and other affiliated extremist groups in different parts of the world. They are breeding budding suicidal candidates to finish their lives in the name of their GOD. Even their GOD cannot do anything for their well being. The path to educate their self in terror institute provide them brief career in acclaimed killing of innocent people. Till they realize that they out of ammunition to fight for their GOD, they are already on journey to their GOD.

Is there any end this raw ordeal by the messengers of their endearing GOD. Will any religious fundamentalist be able to justify the open firing in public places? What if the same agents were happened to be at their own religious buildings considering it as lavish hotel, and killing devotees in guise of its guest on premises? Well, certainly these creatures have a little mind to use, that would probably be a wrong thing to do for them. It is very similar to the computer programs which actually is made by programmer and destroys all the computer applications, and termed as VIRUS. To get rid of this VIRUS of masses, we need to keep the definitions right. The conceptualization of people with wrong definition will always create some trouble. Thus it is high time to increase the immunity of our social system simultaneous with scanning the Viruses in public and correcting the definition where ever it is found to be defective.

Return of Love Thieves

Have you ever been lost in love? The most enigmatic yet talked about thing in this world is love. Getting into make your life seem beautiful, accepting it is like a greatest challenge in the world seem fulfilled, rejecting leaves being stranded into isolated lanes of solitude and depression for being dejected, finishing the love itself makes life color less.

Going through the oblivious memories of the Love thieves who were strangers to the life that seem not be stranger some time before, leads to false illusion of return of love that never was. Taking the plunge into the “thieves of love” (those who had love but leads to broken love) re-creates re-develops and re-stimulates the love pulse to re-ignite the fire that ever was. Experiencing to face those acquaintances who some time was love interest is nothing like re-altering your ego about perception of those who could not be part of life any more. Trust again with the same person is far, far across the galaxies. But it always enthuses to know about the same person with same mold of thought to re-enter and re-formulate the love equation to make dormant old chemistry of molecules to work.

Life continues! there are always crossroads on the pathways; it brushes with the old leaves of that tree that ever was on looking at the passersby. Love once broken cease to be same again. It loses the vital energy in the relation. It does not breeze your way to being eternal. However, it stays, somewhere in the junkyard of back of your memory process. Is never can be showcased as just arrived.

Some time in life every one wonders about this enigma, there are quotes, stories and endless movies based on true love. I still wonder that what is truth has to do with it when you let enter benign doubts to waste your life to gauge the level of truthiness. There is nothing truth or false in this when your conscience says that it is truth for you then the whole history of false hood in this world is a true wonderland for you. No one can let you make realize the truthiness of it. It stays, resurge, relive and reactivate that vital feeling rippling in like called Love.

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The Future Redefined

The books are way of life and the collection of books that we keep is our knowledge source often. It will be crazy idea to keep a collection of books handy while on the move or going for work for any book worm. When is the last time you bought a newspaper on the news stand to keep abreast with the latest happening. Have you ever lost the way and he

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